Pushing Mental Road Blocks....

I started this blog post off a bit "whoa is me" but then deleted everything and decided to start over. Here's the deal, I really don't have time for a pity party even though I think about hosting one at least once a day.

There is so much in life to be thankful for and this past weekend was a weekend of firsts for me. And some would say, "It's about time."

Saturday morning I put off my own training ride to ride with others. Seems totally fitting since so many of my friends have put off or altered their workouts to come with me.

My friend from Team Endured reached out seeking cyclists to accompany a handful of athletes on their course preview of the Peachtree Road Race. Sarah was supposed to ride with me so I reached out to her to see if she was interested. Of course she was! I met up with Sarah at her house near Chastain Park and then we rode over to meet up with the crew.

Along with a couple of other cyclists and sag support from the Shepard Center, we escorted, blocked intersections and provided a barrier as the athletes pushed their way up Peachtree including Heartbreak Hill.

I will absolutely be channeling these guys as I'm running the course in a few weeks. They tackled the hills without any whining or cussing which is something I am just not capable of doing. I mean I can do the hills, just not without the cussing.

After riding back to Sarah's house I headed to the Silver Comet, some place I haven't ridden since last October. It's a familiar old friend, but I was also reminded how tough it can be to ride there if you don't start early. There are too many people who believe the path belongs to them and them alone. To stick with the positive theme of the blog, I got to visit the FOUNTAIN!

Chlorine dip, a little conditioner, and dry clothes and I was able to head straight to my nephew's baseball game. Oh and I got to proselytize about triathlon to two women who were out there spreading the word of God.

The next day was a huge mental break through for me. I agreed to, and actually showed up to a group ride led by people I had never ridden with before on a route I had nightmares about. I acknowledged in Ironwilled: Women Who TRI that I fear the group ride. Why? I am not swift on my bike. Am I faster than others, yes; but slower than most. I fear getting dropped (dropped = lost). My own internal guilt kicks in that I'm messing up someone else's workout or making everyone else wait too long and then when I roll up, I have to roll out. Therefore, no rest. I fear failure in front of others.

But I went anyway. I went to ride the Gaps with ITL Coaching and Performance for an advertised No Drop Ride. This means, no one gets left behind.

That's me in the white, surrounded by a sea of blue...

photo credit: itlcoaching

As it would turn out, I was right. I was the slowest one out there. It ended up being one of the those experiences that I would have pushed through on my own, but was so much better having a friend there. After our first regroup, Angela (founder of Team Endured) dropped back and stayed with me. If I cussed too much (if there is such a thing) she just reminded me to push-pull. And surprisingly, my cadence wasn't awful, I just didn't move very fast. Moreover, after the first meet up, the rest of the group went on and that was PERFECTLY fine with me. However, I wasn't dropped. Coach Chris and Coach George both kept regularly circling back. They offered words of encouragement and compliments. "Nice cadence, just hold it and keep moving forward." They both even hung out a few times and chatted. The best was getting updates as too how much further the next peak was. It was great to know it was eventually going to end. I could not have asked for a better first experience riding the Gaps or doing a workout with ITL. These coaches exemplified what I have seen from most triathletes and coaches: true inclusion and encouragement. Oddly enough, no one called me pugnacious...

I can't get a better screen shot so you might need to click on the picture to see the elevation.

No filter. The camera lense was sweaty. Best picture of the day too! 

Huge mental break through for me this weekend agreeing to go to the group ride, actually showing up, and finishing it!

It's still a long road to IM Louisville. So far, I haven't been given anything I can't handle and there is something to be said for that. I'm looking forward to getting up to preview the Louisville course in July. I think that will help my lack of excitement about IMLou as well.